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♥ Thursday, April 14, 2005♥

:::: [Look on the bright side of life] ::::
I'm going to be depressed soon. I don't know why but sometimes I really feel sad when I think about going to TEP and being separated from my friends. I really miss them! alot alot alot... I don't know how to rate it but I MISS THEM ALOT!!!! I miss hanging out with those nutty looney people, crapping and laughing my head off. haiz...
Sorta had a bad day on tuesday. I was looking forward to seeing my friends again but I realised I had forgotten to bring my lanyard when I reached the lecture hall. I'm like very blur lar! Just think about coming to school and seeing my friends,.. blah blah.. never even think of my lanyard. Then I had to seat at the back and stone. But thank goodness Ah Di came to seat with me. yea`
After lunch I had to go for this test "The art of selling". I was about to walk in.. when the lecturer stopped me coz I didn't bring my lanyard. When he said that I would have to get zero, I'm like [WHAT] !!!!! Of all days to forget my lanyard, it had to be a test day. That was just perfect. Somemore, the first day that I forgot my lanyard! sad sad, but at least he said later that he would arrange again for me. Think that is good? It maybe ok, but definately not good.
oh ya,.. I got posted to MSC FUSION. The shop selling all the CDs and tech stuff. (Visit me k?)

The next morning (Weds), the lecturer came into our shop and he seems a much nicer man compared to tuesday so I approached Him and asked him when I could have my test. He said that he would arrange it for next week. I started thanking him and I thought evrything was going to be alright again until I changed my mind in the afternoon. A senior came to tell me that the committee would be observing me for 2 weeks before they decided whether I could take the test. If I did well, I could retake it but if not, I would get a zero. I accepted it because I knew there was nothing I could do but of course I felt really sad. You may think I'm really sensitive but if I only cared about passing, I wouldn't bother about that test. It's because I want an A for this semester that I'm so concerned about doing well for everything. No offense

Even though I may feel so stressed learning all the new stuff and taking charge of products and having to deal with customers, I'm sure I would relax soon enough after I'm familiar with every procedure. Can u believe it? My outlet has 4 tvs where our superviors would be looking at us, how we're handling the whole thing,,.. blah blah. Can't eat, Can't drink, Can't seat in the outlet. Torture! But at least I made new friends! They are jac, ah xin, nurul, nana and jia li. They are pretty nice people and fun to hang out with. Have to start getting used to them... ha ha.
I've been coming to school for training from wednesday to friday and I wonder how I'm going to survive. I'm just not used to waking up early, reachin school before 8.30, standing for almost the whole day and leaving at 6 plus, having to squeeze in the train with people during the peak hours and reaching home tired and depressed.
Hope my days will become better. I really love being positive and stop being so depressed but I just can't help it. At least I still have God!! yea` I'm sure this is his perfect plan nevertheless...
I'm sure I'm more fortunate than many others, I just have too good a life to realise that. :)
+ I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!+
I miss my friends lots and lots and lots. ..


Serenity`