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♥ Sunday, February 11, 2007♥

FINALLY!
Projs are over! after months of rushing projects and presentations, we're free :)
actually not really la.. I still have to redo my IB proj because the teacher said that judging from our presentation, what we gave her was not enough and we were likely to fail if we didn't redo.

Even though it would be great if projs were really over, I'm just glad the teacher was honest with us and gave us a second chance. Its definately better than failing and staying in school because of that module.

With the nearing graduation, I really feel that my future is uncertain.
Firstly, I don't even know if I can pass my IB. oh ya.. IB is this annoying subject Internationaly Business and we learn the best ways to do business, what method to enter the country's biz etc and we've been having probs since the beginning. What makes it worse is.. its project based! aarrgh~ I hate that! i've had enough man.
The first proj we flunked which was 20%.. the second was a test (25%) which I'm not really sure I can pass not because I didn't study but because the stuff that came out wasn't even linked to the study scope. omg! and the last one is the 40% proj that we're doing or re-doing now.
How?? do u think i can pass?

But what I worry about most if I really do fail and what comes in my mind when I think im gonna fail is the image of telling my pa that I fail and have to repeat and see the disappointment in his face. I can't stand to disappoint my parents.

I just don't understand.. I really tried my best! So if i do fail.. im gonna try and try again. aarrrgggh and of course its gonna lessen my chance of ever going to the uni which is already slim at the moment.
who knows how much more my GPA is gonna drop.
add to that the lack of finance and the intense competition.. My future is really uncertain.

But sometimes, I really think.. is going to uni what I want or is it just a way for me to put off working??
Of course the plus point is that it allows me to earn more when I work but so what?
Will i be happy with the career I end up with or just put up to a 9 to 5 job everyday?
When I think of it.. its like no life!

So all I can do is pray and leave it to God. whether I can pass or get to a uni, It depends on him.
Yeah thats right! im gonna trust him to help me through this major part of my life.
For all those reading this, I would really appreciate your prayers :)


Serenity`